Half assed….

Within the four walls of the spare bedroom at my parents home, lives a painting I started in 2014 whilst living in the Sunshine State- aka ‘Brisvegas’.

I started it alongside my German soul sister whilst we sat at my kitchen table listening to Xavier Rudd. I can’t be sure of what song was playing- but Xavier was the flavour of the season!

True to her nature, my bestie focused and completed the painting which she then hung on her living room wall.

Me on the other hand, I got distracted with things like dating, working, adventuring, self helping and break ups.

My face is red with ‘honesty’ as I write this!

Now back to the four walls in the spare room at my parents home. On the wall you look at before closing your eyes and retiring for day, lives my half assed painting!

Are you laughing? I know right? What parent in their right mind would hang a half assed painting on the wall in the spare room?

I’m sorry I have no concrete answer to give you. However, Ive turned it into a simple blissful reminder of what it literally looks like when you give life a half assed effort.

I’ve ‘BEEN’ the queen of half assed in my life. Not because I don’t care about completing things I set out to achieve- nope not at all! But because I’ve let old mate FEAR dictate my way. Can you relate to this?

Sometimes it looks like;

Half starting a business plan and then tucking it away in the top draw… out of fear of really being seen.

Half assed dating or even marrying someone with one foot in and one foot out, because of the fear to commit or open up.

Starting a course, maybe even finishing it, only to push the certificate to the side for a rainy day – out of fear of change.

Half a job application.

Half a creative project.

Half effort or commitment to health and wellbeing goals.

The list can go on and I’m sure I’m not alone with a lot of these.

If by sneaky chance old mate FEAR has held you back from truly pursuing or committing to something that you can’t stop thinking about- then you owe it gently to yourself to courageously put your full ass into it. Give it your best, for the simple reason that it’s important to you- Period!

Last night I laid within the four walls of my parents spare room, staring at my half assed painting staring back at me. I was prompted to write this piece.

Can I be totally super truly honest with you? I actually started writing this on the 22nd January 2019 and i haven’t stopped thinking about it since. Oh the irony!

What’s something in your life right now that deserves your full ass?

Well then, go get it!

You deserve to pursue that which is important to you and make your life beautiful.

Simple Wholesome Bliss

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